You can’t hide from the truth because the truth is all there is. 

Dear New York, 

It’s been well over a year and we’re still talking to each other. I feel as if there’s something growing between us, something that I’ve been “wanting” but not necessarily needing. Something I’ve never realized consciously until a couple of days ago.

I know that you know our main focus is school, family and God — and that is something I find absolutely fascinating about you. You put those three first before your own desires; but, more importantly, you are able suppress your emotions, feelings and insecurities in order to do so. In other words, you think objectively instead of emotionally. 

Our life experiences are not similar, as a matter of fact, they’re quite the opposite; but even so, I believe I am still able to learn from you mentally, spiritually and emotionally.  It’s those three things that I admire about you.  I believe the commodious aspect in considering someone of importance is to see if you’re able to learn from them. And ever since knowing you, I have, and I’m thankful for that each day. In addition, I think your wise selection of words and tone of voice empowers it.  For example, I get a kick of blissfulness when you’re serious with me, because when you’re being serious you simultaneously make it comedic but in an intelligent manner, which I find quite pleasant. In an odd and comparable way, you sort of remind me of how I would address something serious as if I was listening to myself speak. Is it strange that we both speak the similar manner? I don’t think so. I find it, quite frankly, absolutely wonderful. 

2011 will be the year, I guess. At one point in my life I thought it was this year, however that was not the case.  I believe it was my fault to force a desire and want into a reality and for not being strong enough to accept it earlier. I’m not saying what you and I have isn’t possible. We began as two individuals who took life as roller coaster and now we’re both in the same seat riding it together. But the real question remains: will you and I get off the ride together or will one remain behind and keep riding? There is no wrong or right answer. The things that we’ve learned and gained from our past and observations is, that, we’re both objective individuals who do not reason with our emotions. We base our reasoning and actions on what’s present, obvious and factual. It’s those kind of things that absolutely make me love about you. Even though we have comparable thoughts and views, we both know life will always move on, despite whether we want it not to or not. Because life is always constant. It never sits still. It’s always in motion — that’s the beauty about life.

New York, I hope our paths cross; if they do, I hope to walk with you side-by-side with your shadow. Perhaps I’m talking too much and over-thinking, but if I were to reference our many conversations, laughs and smiles we’ve shared, I’d say I have good reasoning to do so. But, in the meantime, we’ll keep conversing and see each other soon…I hope. 

That is all.

Love,

Junior

There is an idea of a Bo Sadler, some kind of abstraction, but there is no real me, only an entity, something illusory, and though I can hide my cold gaze and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable: I simply am not there.